Shelby (witch), Avery (flying unicorn), Delainey (fluffy sheep dog), Brody (Franklin)
WAY TOO MUCH CANDY...
"Motherhood brings as much joy as ever, but it still brings boredom, exhaustion, and sorrow too. Nothing else ever will make you as happy or as sad, as proud or as tired, for nothing is quite as hard as helping a person develop his own individuality especially while you struggle to keep your own." -- Marguerite Kelly and Elia Parsons

Yesterday a friend of mine and I went to an amazing conference on SPD… it was overwhelming. I can speak for myself when I said that while I left with a lot of additional knowledge in what I can do to help my precious sensational child, I also left with a very heavy/hurting heart and in fact my head was hurting too.
I learned amazing things that I can do to help Shelby to not exhibit the symptoms that get her labeled as “naughty” or “hyper” , but I also received a lot of amazing information that I am going to beat her teacher over with the head with and down her throat it if I have to, to get the teacher to listen. You see Shelby has come home several of the days saying “ Teacher XXX hates me”, and Chad and I have been trying to tell her that isn’t the case and that her teacher loves her…well that is hard to continue to say to her when Avery (who is in the same class thank God), says “No really mommy…Teacher XXX doesn’t like her”.
So I will be calling this teacher and setting up a meeting to give her this information, and to also tell her what I expect from the situations because frankly… preschool is WAY too early for this bull crud!! I will fight for this child as well as for the rest of my children (Hell I’ll fight for YOUR babies too if need be)…and apparently giving the teacher the information hasn’t been going well since apparently nothing has changed…except Shelby NOT wanting to go to school, and having to be made feel like crap in a world that already thinks she is a brat.
I also want to put a little shout out to Dr. John Taylor who is the physician who gave the conference…he is AMAZING… absolutely amazing. He specializing in SPD/ADD/ADHD/Autism Spectrum, and frankly it was the best $$ I have ever spent… HANDS DOWN AMAZING… you can find more on Dr Taylor and his work at his personal web site www.ADD-Plus.com . Again he was AMAZING!!! Another awesome thing that I learned at this conference is that hopefully when the 2012 DSM comes out SPD will be included so it will be an official psychiatric condition and rather a 'list of symptoms'.... and then I will be able to tell not only the schools system to take a big ole big of my rear end and help my baby... but others who struggle even worse with things like insurance etc will also be able to do the same thing...

Well last night Chad and I talked about the choices that were in front of us. We made a choice and we both agreed that if this was what I wanted that I should go for it, but that if it wasn’t that it wasn’t the end of the world…
So I tossed and turned for several hours last night before I finally gave up on sleep, and went to the living room. I finally was able to go to bed at 5am (so you know ALL moms work amazingly on 2 hours of sleep)… I got the kids off to school and called the company that had offered me the job and accepted the job. The moment I hung up the phone I burst into tears… within 5 minutes of that I could hardly breathe… obviously this was not the right choice for me.
I had thought that I thought everything through… and it wasn’t until I heard someone else say that 3 nights of the week I wouldn’t see my babies for the whole day…you see I would be leaving by 6:30am and wouldn’t be back until well after bed time, and the two other nights of the week I have night class so I wouldn’t have seen them then either… it was certainly my own personal ahhh moment.
My husband helped me through the crisis and I was able to come to my own choice that this position probably wasn’t going to work out for me… he helped me to understand that while the extra money would be nice, that our children come first…even if they drive me bonkers…I think this was JUST the kick in the pants I needed to realize that I GET to stay home with them and not that I HAVE to.
As I was calming down further, an amazing friend called. She and I have worked closely for years on different pet projects and such, and she has offered me an amazing position FROM HOME for a cause that I fully believe in and would put my own life on the line for… I have of course accepted this position and will travel for training next Thursday and Friday for work J YAY!!! Amazing position and also a small mental break in the car on the way there :)
So I fully believe that I apparently got the direct line to God today in my prayers… because in the matter of moments all the pieces fell into place for me and my family…
