min-vent

Awhile a go I joined a group that was is supposed to be a support group. It is a wonderful group of ladies, and I have met so many wonderful friend through the group, but I am really starting to stuggle with even wanting to be a part of the group....

It seems like I let it consume so much of my time and I let this 'support group' (not really lately) get to me on so many aspects of my life. It seems like that no matter what I do I can never make the group as a whole happy and I often end up where I am right now....wanting to run in the complete opposite direction.

I wish that there was an 'easy' way for me to just step back, but because I love to be involved I am almost 'too involved' to step away.... no matter the toll that it is taking on my personal life or sanity.... so as I have learned the past few years...guess I just have to suck it up right....

WARNING ...pissing, moaning and some bitching ahead..

These are just some random pisses/moans/bitches that have come to the front for me over the past few days....

• if your going to do something to 'help' do it right and not half assed
• and to go with that, don't act like you saved the world by doing something that you should have been doing all along...
• don't pretend like you are going to call someone and when you don't call them act all shocked that the person went ahead and did what they had requested your help for when they do it themselves.
• GROW THE HELL UP!!! Seriously... I mean how much longer can you act 5 and expect for people to treat you like an adult... put on your big girl panties and just get over yourself PLEASE!!!
• Apparently our health insurance company are IDIOTS... two of our four children have grade 4 acid reflux/GERD and require medication for it. Every few months (where Avery is concerned) they pull this crap that says we have to try the 'cheaper' medications *AGAIN* rather than just letting us get what works for her. Our poor little girl is dealing with some SERIOUS acid reflux issues to the point where she isn't even wanting to eat (SHOCK if you know Avery). And now they are pulling the same shit with Brody. I mean come on people... I know that some people don't want to try the medications that are cheaper etc, but trust me...we want the cheapest to us and the best for our children. We aren't exactly impressed with the co-pay difference that comes with the prevacid but it works for our kids so we want it... so tonight we have dealth with acid vomit and also a screaming because Brody is in extreme pain... gotta love health insurance companies...

more tomorrow I am sure... LOL